i know it's been ages since i've blog cause when i was working , i was really busy .
busy until i don't have proper meals & slp sometimes .
oh well , glad that i'm schooling now ; for people who doesn't know , FYI  i'm schooling in tp :D
yes , tp , it's real far but i heard it's one of th best business school (or am i just comforting myself)

oh well , school is kinda stress up because it's totally different from work & ite life , where i could sleep or slack thru & score pretty okay .
poly lectures ain't like ite , i guess somehow or other is because they got to take care of 3 classes per lecturer ?
that's crazy man .

mid-sem test is like 6 june & i'm not really prepared nor wanting to take th exams , but i know i've got to go thru it no matter what .

& thank god i'm gg out ltr so i can de-stress myself bfore next week ! :D

it's been 5 days , how have you been ?
there are so many things running through my mind right now .
I guess there is times where i could turn to no one , but my blog .
I feel like starting the conversation first , but it's been always , it have became a habit that I always do things first .
I guess this time it would be better for you to start first .
maybe things would had turn out differently if I had started it , maybe things would had gone better if I had enroll myself into poly instead of rejecting it .
maybe , maybe , maybe .
I never thought that things would turn out such a way , which i myself is stuck right now .
because I'm lost , I don't know what else to do but to pray every night before i sleep .
crying doesn't mean I'm weak , but means I'm lost ; lost in every way already .
moving back seems wrong , moving on seems worser & not moving seems a mistake .
nicole , nicole , what have you done wrong this time ?
I feel like voicing out myself , but what I did no one else could accept , not even myself till now .
right now , i hate myself more then any bitches i had ever hate .

OMG .
tmr got 655 checkout rooms , as usual on a sunday .
but , tmr im doing myself !
my team alr got 75 check out-s , not including airline checkouts & early checkout .
omg , i think tmr i'm gonna panic like crazy & let's hope tht other team leader would help esp francis since he stepped on my toes just now ! ):
tmr gonna b chaos because aunties asked me nt t give them too much checkout when they are th floors owners .
this add on t th currently stress im having alrs .
moreover , tmr since there are so many singaporeans , it's gonna b dirty & gonna get my hands down .
but when i first decided t work as team leader , i should had knw it's my job & duty t get my RA job done no matter wht .
& since tmr , boss is gonna check on th glass project , i should even b mre cautious of my RA's glasses .
no matter wht happens , i think i need t push myself a lil mre for tmr , esp it's a sunday w so many c/o & so many many many many many f/r .
*cries*

xk told me nt t worry bout my rms , i will get over & done w .
jus like my 15 rms , thr were ppl t help me & get it over w .
but tht time was doing ROOMS , help was almost everywhere .
nw , it's checking rooms & my team really sucks .
w ppl forgeting this & tht , im afraid tht i got complain & can't get thru probation ):
sometimes i really wonder why did i wanted t get full time job instead of accepting tp's offer :\
i need reminders thr & thn t remind myself why i get a full time job !

dates are getting nearer & for god's sake , next mth gt linen inventory >.<
it's gonna b GG.COM cause aunties like t hide their linen EVERYWHERE THEY CAN HIDE !
closets , even mobile carts w soiled linens .
yes , it sound ridicuious but tht's wht im facing everyday !
*sighhhhhhhhh*

counting down t my next off day .

if one day i changed , please don't blame but yourself .
you have caused me to be this way (:

recently ain't feeling well .
getting slightly feverish & dad had been admitted into hospital .
work load is getting mre & mre as each day passes , but , i still got t work .
i dare not scold people but my dear xk will help me scold X:
& he is damn fierce in scolding whoever is buweeing me during work .
sometimes i think that i don't have a good but my working colleagues really treat me better , much much much better !
this makes me having second thoughts if i wanna continue my education , because i jus need tht damn cert , i can always tk private .
right ? :P
but with them around me , i feel tht even if th sky was t drop on me , i can never fail t count on them t cheer me up w their smile , their ranting & their concern .
jus like tht day , i accidently cut my finger & i jus wraped it w a tissue , they jus started being concern w/o me explaining t them .
even though they are ah-tiongs/prc , they treat girls much better then singaporean guys & tht's a fact which i can't deny .

sat went out w wf & ended up , he bought me ard 5o+ worth of sweets from candy empire -.-"
yes , i knw abit ...
th most ever i spent on sweets was 2o & tht's it !
anws , he & wy gonna treat me eat buffet as swiss merchant court !
HEHEHEHES , heard tht ym brought them go & it was damn delicious !

toodles , gonna go watch csi :D